Everyday I have to run away from people and hide for a bit. I’m like a reverse solar panel, I need darkness and a few solitary moments to recharge.
I define love as being what I run away too and I always run to you.
I love you.
the worst thing about being shy and introverted as that you most of the time come off as cold and arrogant like you think you’re better than everyone else and thats why you don’t talk to people or hang out with them but it’s really the opposite its like you’re so uncomfortable with yourself that you don’t wanna share it with anyone else so you just dont and people think you’re an asshole but you’re actually just really scared
Zero is a number. I use it all the time. It’s great for looping.
A computer programmer
Okay dude, this is coming in bullet point form because there is a lot of shit you need to take in and I know as well as anyone that you get bored really easily.
It sounds bad but these are just some things that I want to fix, because life actually ends up pretty good for us. We have an amazing partner, a woman who is so smart and beautiful that you will often wonder at how you got so lucky. You end up with the best friends anyone could ask for and you just get more as time goes on.
Life works out great little guy. But seriously, and this is the most important thing I will tell you: Do not watch my little pony without your girlfriend.
Seriously she never forgives you for that.
PurePwnage, if you don’t know, was a Canadian web series, it was a mockumentary that followed the adventures of “Jeremy” a self proclaimed pro gamer and his brother “Kyle” was the one holding the camera.
If you haven’t watched any of it, please go and check it out, it is easily found all across the web but PurePwnage is probably the most reliable source as it is the official one.
Me and my friends watched this show, talked about this show, re-enacted moments from this show. We all played video games and were obsessed with our own games, I loved Age of Empires and played that shit every day, finding new ways to build epic maps. PurePwnage literally made me the gamer I am today, my sense of humour has been entirely moulded by this and other shows around the time.
I recently found out that there is a movie being made and I am overcome with memories.
I remember vividly downloading my first episode. I was on dial-up and the video size seemed huge to me (lol 200MB or so). You had to download the whole thing at once which seemed crazy, you’d have to download for hours! Side note: Streaming video had literally only just become a thing, Youtube hadn’t actually taken off yet, it was around but it wasn’t the giant website it is today.
So with the daunting prospect of downloading hundreds of megs just so I could be involved in the chat at school, I began the download.
The process was arduous and I am so thankful that someone had hosted a Torrent of the episodes because if they hadn’t I never would have managed the download at all. I was on dial-up and had to disconnect our phone-line to be able to use the internet. I started the D/L as soon as I got home from school and suffered constant interruptions as people called the house, wanted to use the computer, wanted to call their boyfriends (having 3 older sisters sucks seriously) or worst of all, told me to go to bed.
I was maybe 15 at the time and quite understandably my parents didn’t want me to stay up past midnight.
I didn’t care though, when my mum had fallen asleep and my stepdad had gone to work (he was a friggen milkman no word of a lie), I snuck back downstairs and trailed the phone extension cord all the way across the hall so I could dial in and finish the download.
I started the download on some random thursday and it finished early that friday morning at like maybe 3am. I stayed up all night to watch 22 minutes of some Canadian guys goofing off in front of a camera.
As I sat there, letting my cereal go soggy while I guffawed at the antics of FPS_Doug as he danced around and screamed “BOOM HEADSHOT” I didn’t care that I had stayed up late, that I had used up my internet allowance for the week and I had an entire weekend to get through.
I didn’t care that I had massive bags under my eyes or that my hair was a mess because I forgot to shower.
It didn’t matter because I had found something so special, I had found validation. I didn’t have to think that I was some weird-o freak, there were other people who were this into video games, so much so that they had made a show about it. Sure they were acting but to have any knowledge of the games they had to be players. They had to be as enthusiastic as I was.
I’ll never forget talking to my friends in English and laughing about FPS Doug and how amazing the show was. I’ll never forget pretty much the first time I had ever felt like I fitted in.
Sorry this is long but it was in my head and I had to get it out heh.
TL:DR; PurePwnage helped me fit in and feel accepted for the first time in my life.