Bleh, so i have come full circle and i now like the parody video i created the other week, but this is my biggest problem. I often dislike what i create and end up deleting it, after spending weeks agonising over filming it. Which has made me reluctant to ever film anything in case it doesnt match up to my unrealistically high standards D:

So yes, the slowdown in work is because im too critical and have started to really agonise over what to make for my channel.

capnraccoon:

Here’s the thing about us cooky, creative media types, those of us that express ourselves with paint, with ink, with cameras and microphones amongst so many other mediums. Us that choose to be non-linear within life, whether you’re a journalist, a poet, an artist, a writer or a singer you’ve made a choice to be just a little bit different; you’ve chosen to have yourself judged differently, you’ve chosen to be part of an entirely different world - one that doesn’t work like the rest of the world, sure you might be bound by paying bills and human restrictions, but at the end of the day you’re not an accountant, you’re not a bin man, you don’t want to work 9 - 5, you want to express you.

The biggest problem that we all face is judgement from ourselves.

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Here is the link, watch, go go go!

http://www.xbox.com/en-gb/e3

Planned content is coming folks. I feel like im always promising to have a golden egg tomorrow, but then tomorrow comes and all i do is say “Yeeeeah, about that golden egg”.

Well on the bright side i am currently (as in right this second) recording audio for a series that will change my channel for good. The series is going to start next week on tuesday, so keep an ear out! I have special episodes of the series planned for every second thursday for the guys over at hardreset.co.uk though, dont tell them that, they might expect to actually GET that golden egg, and like i said before…

Yeeeah about that series…

On a forum i frequent i have the following conversation:
Guy - “Yo my friend tells me you play SF and you are really good.”
Me - “I play, but i wouldn’t say im good.”
Guy - “Im easily top 8 in the UK add me on Live my tag is ****, play me.”
Me - “Sure.”

30 minutes, 15 straight losses later:
Guy - “You’re a f**king cheater.”

Moral of this story :
Don’t lie about being good at video games.

So today I have unfortunately been far far far too lazy. I have done almost none of the things I set myself to do today, including getting lunch. Which on second thoughts I will go do after I’ve finished writing this short blog post.

I have a resolve that I will get something done today, so I am going to record more for my new series Rank Up, and try to get an episode out by thursday.. which is in 2 days time.

The vlog yesterday turned out so horribly that I couldn’t bring myself to putting it online so I did in fact delete the whole video. I am my worst critic when it comes to videos.

Look out for more stuff on my channel, it is coming, trust me :)

So today has been so far, dedicated to gardening. Woke up at 9am with my girlfriend, rather reluctantly on both of our parts. Did my usual morning bathroom and teeth, then got my girlfriend some breakfast as it is my turn. As we are both off uni we figured we would take turns making breakfast, which seems like a good plan to me. Cereal is a good breakfast… right? Okay so i started the day a little lazier than i should have.

After getting her breakfast i got the washing out, or actually the other way round but that doesn’t matter. I got the load of washing i did last night out and dumped it on the bed to deal with later. My theory is that if i leave it on the bed it may dry a little more before i put it away. Damp clothes are balls but our drier isnt amazing, so there isnt much i can do about it besides leaving them to dry a little somewhere, hence the bed dumping.

Then gardening. Well the first thing i thought going out there today was “i want music this time.” so i took out my headset to listen to my ipod with. Turns out that headsets are chaffing as balls midday in Madagascar when its warm out so i scrapped that idea and took out tinytop, a little red net-book that i used for uni to type with and.. well basically nothing else besides a few emulators here and there. So music set-up i figured out my first job in the garden today, which actually was to trim back our very gracious and not at all asshole neighbours overgrown piece of shit hedge. We have a fence, which made the job really fiddley and my arms still ache from holding my clippers sideways so i could get all the branches. I did not do the worlds greatest job i will admit that right now.

Second job in the garden was to cut back this blasted Buddleia tree that blocks the view of the garden from the living room. Im not exaggerating when i say i cut it down from 12 feet to about 6 feet tall. I cut that bitch in half! I didnt kill it i just pruned it back.. like a maniac :D It now does not block the window.. and that is exactly what i wanted so, i am pleased that this job went well.

Third job, was to cut back all the bushes that i could reach. Now i am not actually a very good gardener, as i do not have a clue what any of the bushes are called except the fern, and that doesnt need cutting as its about as big as my fist at the moment. But i cut all of them back to a more manageable and reasonable size. In total i cut back about 7 bushes and most of a tree. The tree is always a little tricky because i do not want to kill it or make it starved of sunlight but i feel i did a good job.

So yes. I am veeery tired now, and writing this before i go take a well earned bath.

There will be a short (and my first!) vlog of this later on today. After im clean.

New video coming along soon all about spacing and how to keep at the right range, and how to analyse what ranges are good for both your character and the character you are versus. Check my Youtube regularly for updates!